I ought to have written this yesterday because that was the day I made the trip to Sun. But something confused me, and I was too exhausted to do anything. However, life goes on. Actually that trip taught me a lesson and set me to reflect on the word "professional", which seems to be the gap between society and I.

 

I went to Sun in order to assist a Ph.D Candidate of my mentor, who is currently in charge of the project I am participating, to report the progress of the research. The presentation was in English, and a foreign officer from Sun would interrupt whenever he found anything implicit. The questions he asked were both professional and extensive, and have to be answered in English. During the 2 hours report, he was so concentrated and kept communicating with the orator that I even feel shameful for my absence of mind.

 

He was also very humorous. When he distributed tea for us, he said to me, "This is the only job I am good at." I was so embarrassed that I could not say any words other than "thank you".

 

Yesterday was also the first time I wore a suit. I borrowed everything from Zhuxi: a suit with wrinkle, a grey white shirt, a pair of trousers, and shoes. On wearing these, I saw a security guard in the mirror. Of course, I don't mean to despise security guards. I just think it's time to make myself professional.

一、要向法院证明自己拥有专利权，必须提交的证据之一是缴纳专利年费的收据。

 

二、但是只要你向专利局交钱，它都会收下，还给你收据。

 

三、哪怕你的专利已经被无效了。

 

四、专利权的保护范围记载在权利要求书中。

 

五、权利要求书就像情书，首先要写“我爱你”，不然对方不接受。

 

六、然后你要写“我会如何如何爱你”，对，这就相当于权利要求书中的“附属权利要求”。

 

七、如果别人也用相同的方法去爱你的情书对象，因为你已经这么爱了，那么显然你比较有优势，这就叫“在先权”。

 

八、但如果别人用你情书中未写明的方法去爱你的情书对象，那就没办法了。

 

九、所以权利要求书最好写得尽量宽泛，已获得更大的保护，但也容易被无效。

 

十、高技巧的情书只写“我爱你”，而不写爱的方法，这样有助于自由发挥。但是大部分男人都喜欢许下无谓的承诺……

 

结论：请使用四至十的逻辑对一至三进行演绎。

Although of great pressure, preparing for job happens to be an unique experience in my life.

 

Maybe sometimes I wish this period to pass as soon as possible, but I really learned something I had never realized.

 

Now, I have to review myself, of what I have gained in the past 6 years of university study, and what still left for me to persue in the remaining of my life.

 

I ought not to be worried. Of course I can sell myself, so the most meaningful thing lies in the process of finding a job.

 

Extensively, life is experience. In fact, there is no happiness or sorrow in our lives, they are just experience, having the same value to us.

 

That is why I don`t want to be a specialist. I like the general knowledge which gives me pleasure. Thus my ideal path of career will also follow this.

 

My life is for my experience.

Goldman Sachs held an interview skills workshop today in Guanghua and the HR sister Vivian was so cute and charming from whom I got a lot of inspiration. Here are some tips.

 

- The job of a resume is to get you an interview.

- The corporation is looking for a career seeker rather than a job seeker.

- During the 30 minutes of interview, you only have to demonstrate the 3 main aspects of you which you want the interviewer to know.

- You can write something to distinguish you from other candidates in the resume, but remember you have only one page in total.

- Before responding to an interview question, find out why the interviewer asks this question.

- If you have some inferiority compared with other candidates while such inferiority will not affect your competency, you can just explain to the interviewer and emphasize your superiority.

 

Vivian also provided a method named "Visualization" to curb nervousness. Process as following.

 

Close your eyes and imagine you standing outside a room with glass walls. The door has an iron knob. You are going to have an interview. Now you put your hand on the knob and wind it. The door opens and you see the receptionist. You say "Hello, I am John Smith to have an interview". The receptionist smiles and says "Nice to meet you, Mr. Smith. Please take a seat and wait for a moment". You go to the sofa. There are some candidates already sitting there. You seat yourself. A few minutes later, the receptionist comes and speaks to you. It is your turn. You follow the receptionist and finally find youself outside another room. The door is brown, wooden. You knock on the door and enter the room. Inside sits a man, maybe fat maybe thin. He reaches out his hand and says "Nice to meet you, Mr. John Smith". You shake hands with him and say "Thank you for having me here today". He gestures at the chair and says "Please make yourself comfortable and tell me something about you..."

 

This is a film in which you yourself are starring. You can play it whenever you want. You entered the glass room and saw the receptionist. She smiled at you. Did you smile, too? If not, rewind, rewind. You entered the glass room and saw the receptionist. She smiled at you and you smiled too. You saw other candidates. Was your heart beating too fast? If yes, rewind, rewind. You saw other candidates. You slightly nodded your head as greetings and seated yourself. Soon the receptionist came up to you and led you to the interview room. How about the distance between you and her? If you walked too slow or too fast, rewind, rewind. You just followed her in a coordinate pace. Finally you stood outside the room. Did your throat thirst while hands sweat? If so, rewind, rewind. Calm down. You have imagined this scene in your mind for hundreds of times, haven`t you. You were so familiar with this, hence you walked in, sat down, started saying in a smooth tone: "Dear sir, I am here because I think myself the right person for your corporation..."

 

Maybe it is really effective. I will play it.

"You make the choice. Everything is up to you."

"In fact I have no choice from the beginning. I will suffer with whatever I choose."

"Then it means you WON`T suffer from what you choose."

Although investment on real estate may be very profitable, it is actually too expensive to buy a house for living, especially in Beijing. When waiting Abin for dinner near Xindao Cafe, I noticed an intermediary company of house renting and trading on the window of which stuck several tags marking the prices for some available houses. Not to mention the new ones, even a small, second-handed house built in the 1990`s cost too much for me. Future is really awesome, yet I even cannot create a future image of myself. This uncertainty is so illusory that I am exhausted by it, however addicted to it.

After memorising words and TWE passages for 4 days, I finally decide to attend a class today which may serve me as a relax. Frankly speaking, the curriculum this semester is very useful and interesting. however, as I have to improve my English and find a internship, it is really extravagant for me to enjoy every single class. I have never even imagined of the pressure that finding a job could exert on me which turns out to be deadly choking.

 

Exhausted.

 

When wandering on the internet, I found Alicesoft realising some of its old games including the Rance series for free. I downloaded "鬼畜王ランス", which was the first galgame I played. Maybe I will play it again after a success in selling myself, but for now it is too time-consuming. Anyway, it is a great game, I love it.

The spice of life lies in its unpredicablity.

 

After lunch, I suddenly realized that I had left my key in my room and locked the door before leaving. Normally, under such situation, I ought to borrow the key from the dormitory keeper. However, the key there cannot open the door of my room. Ironically, I myself deserve it...

 

When Zhuxi fails to bring his key with him, he always forces the door open by foot. Having been smashed time and time again, last semester the lock finally died of his power. Consequently, we had to replaced the lock, warned Zhuxi not to do that again, and made him to pledge against it. In addition, there were only two keys with the lock, so I had to make three more copies of it. I gave one copy to the dormitory keeper before I found out that there were something wrong that they all cannot open the door. Finally, I managed to change the two in my hand, but did not renew the one at the dormitory keeper`s because at that time, I was sure that the only one likely to borrow it was Zhuxi...

 

So then it was really a pinch for me, as Zhuxi had gone to school, Youwei and Tailang seemed to be at school too. There was a dim hope that Tailang might still be on his way to the bus station, thus I called him, but he did not answer. One minute later, I received his short message saying that he was in the reading room under our dormitory. It suddenly brightened up. How lucky I could ask him to open the door for me. 

 

By the way, I tend to do things beforehand, hence all these happened on my way back to dormitory-- and the moment I reached my room, I found Youwei in！ He did not go to school！ Therefore I had to send a short message to Tailang to apologize...orz

 

It is such a pity that my English is not good enough to describe my mental process... Sigh, everything needs a process.

Youwei is no longer the one he was 2 months ago. His moon-face, barrel-waist and elephant-legs indicate that he has indulged in a luxuriant life during the winter vacation. Moreover, he even conveyed here a huge amount of candy by himself and generously shared with us. Ah, why do I sense some kind of malice?

 

In fact, Youwei is never a slim guy, but usually the fat only gathers around his waist, which makes him look not so bulky. Unfortunately, this time is different, the evil fat eventually managed to climb up to his face, creating an effect that he has been inflated. Of course, this situation renders Youwei depressed and frustrated, especially when trying to thrust his legs into jeans, and as a real man, he determined to continue his fight with fat, AGAIN.

 

In my opinion, the only practical and effective way to lose weight is never eat more than a sustaining amount of food. I say NEVER because I have seen a lot of calamities all named "The Fat Returns", in which the heroes or heroines become "powerful" again once they end the austerity. <-This has already been testifed by science. Besides, exercise can only be used to keep fit rather than lose weight, because actually it will do nothing except sharpening your appetite. On the very moment you stop exercising, you pay.

For a first time in my life, I recognized that English could also be so beautiful and exciting.

 

I have to admit, that the arduous years of English learning had drained my enthusiasm towards this language. It may be a matter deep in the cultural facet as well, because in a case of myself, American style is too exaggerated and an implicit phrasing is preferable, but, the direct reason is, that I just find English too simple. This simplicity has no means to be the same as Korean-- Korean can only be described as, something like, "coarse", but the simplicity of English mainly shows up in the patterns of sentence. Yeah, maybe the word "monotonous" better expresses my perspective. Anyway, today I finally realized that the real charming point of English is in its words. 

 

There is a Chinese poem which says "My loneliness is just like a snake", if translated directly, and I think in this way, the original imaginative scene is ruined. But what if I translate it as "My loneliness meanders"? Of course, it can not be a best translation because after all I am still a novice in English, but at least, the word "meander" is really impressive.

 

In Chinese, when trying to describe something vividly, we often use Analogy, and in English, we can just use two or more adjectives of similar meanings in parallel to get a same effect. This is the right thing that suddenly attracts me. 

一、

为什么Space的日志一定要起个标题？每天都是无题真没有成就感哪。

 

二、

我发现我发短信越来越简洁了。

又伟今天回来，没带钥匙，于是短信问我宿舍有没有人。

又伟：“我下午1点回来，宿舍有人否”？

我：“太郎在”。

又伟：“可现在宿舍没人啊”。

我：“饭”。

又伟：“你和太郎在一起否”？

我：“否”。

又伟：“那你1点回宿舍否”？

我：“否”。

 

如果短信按字收费就好了，可惜。我还发现我只有和一个人发短信的时候会写很多字，唉，我果然是有异性没人性的“駄目人間”么。

 

三、

大葱帮马叉叉去取在网上订的光盘。

马叉叉：“光盘取了么”？

大葱：“取了。我有一个好消息和一个坏消息，你要先听哪个”？

马叉叉：“好的吧”。

大葱：“好消息要和坏消息结合起来听，先听坏的吧。买光盘附送的那个储蓄罐被我打碎了”。

马叉叉：“那好消息呢”？

大葱：“碎片都在，尸体还是完整的”。

 

四、

和志同道合的朋友们分开以后，往往会忘了自己最初的梦想，而只有再次相逢，才能重燃往日的激情。冀叉叉说他想去一个在土耳其工作的单位。

我：“那单位是干嘛的”？

冀叉叉：“在阿拉伯挖石油”。

我和大葱同时：“阿拉伯好啊”。

我：“有阿拉伯少女”。

一秒钟后——

我和大葱同时：“阿拉伯公主”！

 

五、

吃完饭以后店家还给每人发口香糖，马叉叉说他牙疼，不能吃。我就想起了鲁迅先生和中医的故事。

鲁迅：“医生我牙疼”。

中医：“牙齿是和肾连在一起的，牙疼要补肾，我给你开点这方面的药，你先吃着”。

三个月后——

鲁迅：“我牙还是疼”。

中医：“不应该啊。你是不是个人生活不检点”？

鲁迅：“#$%^&^……”

后来鲁迅去了日本，到一个西医诊所看牙。

西医：“不就是蛀了个洞么，补上就行”。

鲁迅：“……”

 

这就是为什么鲁迅先生说中医都是骗子。

北京的交通实在是不可救药。早上被导师约了10点去办公室开会，我提前一个小时出发，结果堵得一塌糊涂，到学校已经9点50多了。然后走到办公室，如果抄小路的话大概是刚好，不过……小路居然被封了，绕道又花了15分钟，欲哭无泪啊。我已经逃了两次会议了，这次是第一次去，还迟到，真是不好意思。

 

嘛，理论上本该是这样的，不过当我10点15分赶到她办公室，她还在里面和另一个人说事儿，所以她并不知道我迟到了。运气还真好。

 

明天总是好的。

最近好像都没有写什么有意义的东西，光顾着整天快乐在自己的世界里了，这样是不行的啊。快乐本身虽然没有错，但是让快乐蒙蔽了双眼，忘记了自己真正追逐的东西，就有点软弱了。今天就来说一下公平好了，不是指法律上的那种公平，而是我世界观的一个组成部分，一个比较接近的概念是“等价交换”。

 

真正意义上接触到这个词居然是在一个动画片里，《钢之炼金术士》。每一集片头曲之前都会啰里八嗦的讲一段话，当时我还不能完全听懂，但是意外的觉得那段话很美。讲的无非是“人如果什么都不付出的话就什么都得不到，要想得到什么东西的话就一定要付出同等的代价，这就是等价交换”，嘛，对于相信运气，在那之前一直自以为空手套白狼才是最上等的我来说，无疑还是有些触动的。那时候还准备换专业，又不知道能不能保送，竟然也人模狗样的早上7点出发晚上9点收工地去自习备考了。每当觉得累的时候，就自己对自己说，“人は何の犠牲なしに……”，唉，真傻。首先，如果真的要考研的话，我的付出显然不够；其次，就算付出够了，也未必能考上；最后，苦日子没几天，就成功保送鸟……人生啊，果真如梦幻一般。

 

就像某个喜欢胡说八道的人的Space上写的一样，他的世界观基本上都来自于动漫，我虽然没有那么严重，但也有很大一部分了。下一个讲到“公平”的动画是《xxxHOLiC》，关键字是“代价”。大概是说，要想得到什么东西，就一定要付出同等的代价，而且是完全同等的，既不需要多付出，但也不能少付出。比如说，如果想要一个很珍贵的东西，那么就必须用自己的另一个很珍贵的东西去交换。虽然这个理论看上去很美，不过貌似个体的总福利是没有增加的？嘛，反正是动画，随便看看就行，也当不得真——

今天很高兴，嗯，应该说是已经很久没有哪一天发生那么多让我很高兴的事情了。早晨去领律师资格证，编号的后四位是3339——虽然不是什么传统意义上的吉利的数字，但是至少非常特别——我喜欢特别。而傍晚回宿舍，查日语一级的分数，355，居然比健太郎还高，就更令我兴奋了。明天就去把证书领回来，据说证书的技术含量还挺高，复印的副本会自动显示出“复写”二字。

 

不过嘛，看着越来越多的证书，突然有种怪怪的感觉，我活到现在不就一直在为了这些纸而努力么，想通了还真是没意思。会不会每个心比天高的人，到头来都发现原来自己命比纸薄？健太郎看了我的简历后，让我把“熟练驾驶机动车”也写上，说这样别人会认为雇用我比较值，这究竟是什么样的世界啊……

刚下过大雪的北京，从空中俯瞰下去，好像冬天的莫斯科——奇怪，我并没有去过那个地方，为什么会用这种比喻——但是，延伸的公路，参差的高楼和平房，砖红色的基调，都告诉我，我终究是回到了北京，回到了这个让我成长，却又让我倍感挫折的城市。虽然这么多年的来来回回，早已使我对北京和无锡之间的差别感到麻木，可是这一次，踏上地面的瞬间，感觉还是有些不同。是因为即将面对的就业的压力，是因为好不容易找到的生活的目标，还是因为远离自己最爱的人们的失落感？大概，都是，又都不是吧。

 

宿舍的食堂和网络还是一样的不可救药，就像北京的交通一样，但这都不重要了。我想我已经在家里呆了太久，太安逸了，而重新和这些正在为了自己的未来而奋斗的人们在一起，会不会连自己也会变得比较有激情？至少，回到宿舍以后，每天徒步的上下楼和六公里长跑，都能使我不至于太倦怠吧。听主席说，班里掀起了一股学习的热潮，大家都在学英语，或者考各种证书，这就是毕业班的氛围。唉，学习么，似曾相识却又好遥远的两个字呢。我想，我已经在虚幻里生活了太久了。

 

好在，如果现在觉醒过来，还不太晚。我突然对未来充满了信心，因为，我不光知道了自己能做什么，还知道了自己应该做什么。对于未来，虽然一半是期待，一半是焦虑，但恰恰是这样的心态，让我一往无前，甘之如饴。

今天妹妹约了几个好朋友一起吃饭，有一个人他爸是公安局的，估计还挺有地位，所以他的亲戚朋友里出现了和黑帮老大一起做生意的，卖赃物的，还有卖黄牛票的，真是长见识。

 

吃完饭去唱歌，嗓子又唱疼了。唱《菊花台》的时候居然把“花落人断肠”唱成了“人落花断肠”，唉。当时觉得有些不对的，但没有意识到，直到他们都笑出来。妹妹的歌唱得真好，连《天上掉下个林妹妹》都会，太强了。

 

我最好的朋友之一以前追我妹妹失败，他就一直活在了自己的世界里，试图从我妹妹的生活中消失。今天很想帮他解开这个心结，就把他约了出来，但没告诉他妹妹也在。谁知道他来了以后还和我闹情绪，真不坦率。上次他明明想要妹妹的照片的，又不好意思，还要我帮他要，真是的。我都告诉他妹妹不在乎了，他却说“我在乎”……是“得不到”又不是“失去”，至于么……

 

逃课果然是不好的，很容易就火星了，嗯。

鸿飞果然找了一个无锡的女朋友，赞啊。今天下午他来约我吃饭，于是去了一家必胜客，一个12寸的饼，他女朋友吃了1/8，剩下的我们平分——与其说是平分，还不如说是他硬塞给了我一半。唉，我的饭量一贯不大，这个饼吃得真不享受，撑死了。我也蛮佩服他的饭量的，我都吃不下，他居然一点没有勉强的样子。不过也难怪，他大概比我高3公分，体重却比我重30斤，属于健硕型的。不管怎样，我算是被他害惨了，现在肚子都好难受……

 

之前在等他的时候，还目击了城管人员打击路边擦鞋点的惨剧。虽然远远望见城管走来，大部分人都整理好装备成功跑路了，但还是有一个大妈被活捉，几番挣扎以后，总算保住了凳子，不过刷子、鞋油全部浮云了。我曾经调查过，如果运气好，一天可以擦20双鞋左右，一双1块钱，成本是3毛，不算人力开支的话，差不多也就是14块的利润，除了不要纳税，这个职业实在是没什么吸引人的地方。出来混，都不容易，城管拿了刷子鞋油又没用，唉……

 

说到城管，有一次我去逛公园，看到城管打击路边摊贩，有一个卖白菜的，城管二话不说就往车上装，满满一车啊。旁边还有一个驯蛇的，城管就无视了，真是……